God, I Am Your Child ...

     I was so weak in the beginning of my life... so silent and calm... even my cry didn't made a loud noise that may tell others that I am in pain...The odds rose against me..the world out of my home seemed filled with hypocrites. I was not angry with them and I was so patient to handle it all...But I was afraid of them...not afraid that they may hurt me...I was afraid that they may hurt my heart...

  Years passed by, My only collected friends were the beautiful and peaceful plants, trees and nature's other miracles around me...I was so eager to enjoy every seconds of every season and every day...I also made friendship with all the people who lived around my home...never played with any kids of my own age...just loved to talk to elder people about anything ...I have hided all my painful instants from my loved one's.. thought that it may upset them. My only hope, faith and my most trusted friend was my God, whom I believed more than anything, only with whom I shared my problems and joy, And He was always there for me...and that I can't forget...

     Things started to change after some years..., my little world became bigger than I could ever imagine... full of strange, selfish and hard hearted people. I started to adjust with them, just because I had to survive...each day living around them was like experiencing most painful days of my life.
     And one day I started to feel my change...finally I became one among them, who successfully survived among them. I was not happy to accept this change of mine. But that change helped me to stand erect and speak out in my later years.

   There were many times in these years where I lost my hope and faith completely...But my Lord took care of me...He directed me in His path...even with my strange decisions that I took by believing my intuition was the decision that He took for me...At first people around me blamed me for taking such risky decisions..but sooner they were happy about it..because that was the best things happen to me.

   Then, for some years my journey was of little relief.. Life played many crazy game But God never left my side... I was not the calm girl of the older years that everyone understood, But I was someone who rules her life with her own intuition and was matured than any one of that age. But no one noticed that I was weak that time...I was losing my inner self and thats the reason my behavior changed drastically.

     After few years, I took may decisions one contrary to another. each time i took entirely different decisions...finally when I got what I wanted and when God has given something that I asked Him....I changed my decision to its contrary... but my intentions were good on that. God still helped me to be the best in what I chose... He raised me up to the mountains, He was so generous to me...

But after some years, there was time to make a clever move in my life... my decisions planted successfully but my mind said to me its wrong and I dropped it again..After that, for a long time there was no peace for me... Only falling hope was there...The worst part of my life was that. That was not a shorter struggle period, its span was too long,I saw nothing but sadness in my face...never been truly happy.... more than any other thing what hurt me most was that My God didn't answered me and my prayers...That made me heart broken....I even thought several time to end it all...But I still believe that He is the only one who loves me more than anyone...And He will never leave me....never... He knows me more than anyone...and whatever he does for me is the Best thing that can happen to me...And the tears that I cried will bloom one day, as happiness of my Garden of Life.

"I Love You God, For All That You Have Done For Me...

I Will Not Stop Believing In You Till The Last Breath Of My Life...

Sorry, That I Felt Hopeless sometime, Even when I Knew You Were By My Side...

Please Forgive Me For All My Sins, I Know You Only You Can Do That...

I Had Your Blessings With Me , And I Blamed You For Tings I Lost...

My Struggles,Pain,Glory And Happiness, all were Your Blessings..I Knew It Now

You Took My Tests, You Made Me Strong, You Gave Me Honor...

You Raised Me Up , And When I fallen, I Lost Faith In You...Sorry...

I Believe That Even After Everything You Still Loves Me...

Thank You, Father..."