Your Destiny Will Lead You To Where You Belong...

                  So many unknown path we traveled, may unexpected turns you turned, so many obstacles you crossed and so many memories you saved in your way will bring you at last to where you belong. May be the Kingdom is far away from where you stand right now, there is always one thing sure the good shepherd will lead you to him when the world goes dark. When your days of wandering lasts there will be a greater happiness waiting for you on the other side of the world. He promised you He will be there for you and that's everyone's destiny no matter what you think you are, no matter where you are, you always belong to Him, who is your Lord and your Light, Truth and your path. He is the good shepherd who will never lose any of His sheep to be lost in vein, Even when you are lost your way He will come for you and will take you back home with him, where you are destined to live an eternal life and where you belong.

      No matter which way you get, always follow your Lord , hold His hands all your way and He will make sure that you come back home safely. May your good shepherd show you the way..His way...

Oshana in the highest...

            I have never trusted anyone completely, even after seeing them, talking to them and knowing them..., But you my Lord, You were the only one, whom I felt completely and gave my entire faith blindly... And even though the sorrows never left my path, You never left me alone to bear it ...You stood by me all the time and when I was almost about to give up, You sparkled the strongest glimpse of faith into my soul..telling me that You won't let me down, no matter how hard the situation might be. You healed my wounds  before I become weak, You held me before I fell.. I will never find a Love like Yours on this earth of which that I am sure of.

Agree that the sorrows never left me , but neither did You..and after all these years...I remember not the sorrows You gave me but the way You fought with the situations for me... And took me higher and gave me strength again and again to stand on my foot. As I began to grow, people started complimenting my strength. Well, as the truth, they were all wrong, I was the weakest one.

You knew my wishes more than myself, You even knew what's to give me when... even though sometimes I felt You gave me things late or You heard my prayers late...But You knew the right time to act and to give. As a human, I always realize everything late and sometimes emotions leads me more than my faith and I complain to You..., But my Father, You were never angry with me , You waited patiently until I realizes what You meant to reveal to me and You fills me up with Your miracles.

Thank you for all Your Blessings and Your Gifts...
Oshana to my Lord, my Father 

Are we the same..?

    

       The most awaited day of the year in my life, my 23rd bithday, the day forcesus to look back and foresee  the future of your career and life. Somehow, I would like to call  this is year of my life as the'End of waiting'.

Time to remeber what I planned for my my life when I was a kid, and how the plan changed whn I was close to reality and how my thought matured with time and experience, ready to realize I bacame older and wiser than last year. But, somewhere in my thoughts the old little kid has her own dreams and fantasy. To balance the fantasy and realiy was never easy for me, I never said No to any of it, thinking about reality has always helped me to think wise and plan well and to stand on my feet. But fantasy has always kept me in the air , where I fly with the colours of my dreams, by which I got hope , energy and optimism.

      Even though the life's paths have transformed me to another person, there is still a part of me which is real for me. Its not impossible to change to an entirely new character, we see alot of people daily, some people are so emotional, one hit on there weakness could torn their life apart, but for some many of emotional values are just a rain for two minutes, they heal quickly. Its easy to adapt while immitating someone's good characters, and which can transform you, even though  in ourselves we have the same strength to tackle the situation, we never realise our own strength. Sometimes these kind of transformations will help you to change immediately to a stronger person or to adapt yourselves to be more bold in your situations. In principle we are resposible for our own emotional challenges, and we could balance it with our own self control. But, its not always easy for us, because how hard  people may deny the truth, they know they are weak inside.

                                  May we become stronger than we are now...

What we left untold..

                Years goes by.. seasons comes with new colours, somehow the world has changed and we too... Its no longer the same world as you seen before.., your childhood memmories became more like a fantasy dream... But, still some things aren't changed.. after a long transformation of heart and soul, its not easy to go back to the old form entirely, but, some untold words lives as fresh as the sun. It may set for a while, but never forever. We may foresee that things we do may hurt our hearts... still we don't step back. Hearts changes definitely, but not so fast as the seasons does. A new life and reformation is not as easy as words unless there is a strong stimulant to make the change.

     We may leave many things untold, thinking that these words will fade away from our hearts... hoping that the moments we left behind won't trace our shadows in the journey of life, but, sometimes they pour over us like a rain unless we get shade to protect our souls. We may show our weakness or not fate shows it to us, sometimes turning back to the past gives us strength to move on and keeps us going and sometimes its the past that holds you behind or makes you weak, which is also a main reason for depression.

        Let no untold secrets disturb your open future and no unexpressed feelings take away your everyday charming smile... as there is no wound in hearts which cannot be healed by another, if you let someone to.

We always keeps the painfull memmories untold and to ourselves, which interm makes scratches in your heart and turns away many happy moments to sad. Don't let your sould die in pain, let go and and start living, because a smile should come from the soul to be real and true, don't play the life like a drama with many hidden feelings, many untold words in mind. Let your life be real, true and innocent.

May God bless you... have a good happy life...

Thank God for the Miracle

        Its been a year now! that  I haven't posted anything, the whole year was full of miracles... looked like everything was happening for me.. there were times that I lost hope... still there was a single flame some where in my heart that kept me living... I had no idea what I was asking Him for... I had no idea how to get it done.. I had no strength or power to handle it alone ... but , every hardships came on ways all together, I just knew one thing that He told me He will help if I ask, and he will stand for me . He gave me the result of my prayers and my faith.

          He came to me  and changed me.., gave me strength to face everything and stood by me and solved everything for me..before I could realise the problem. I had no idea when I go for a battle , what should I have, how I should be prepared.. But, I swear the moment I left my home, I changed. Many strangers came into my way.. for everyone I remained a mystery.. Hardships never went away, but there was something new that kept me going, that was His miracles...

      I never knew what I wished for myself, but, he remembered my every wishes and fullfilled it..

I saw people who already had every pleasures they wished for.. But, there was a difference between us, that I got everything by a miracle..

God, I Am Your Child ...

     I was so weak in the beginning of my life... so silent and calm... even my cry didn't made a loud noise that may tell others that I am in pain...The odds rose against me..the world out of my home seemed filled with hypocrites. I was not angry with them and I was so patient to handle it all...But I was afraid of them...not afraid that they may hurt me...I was afraid that they may hurt my heart...

  Years passed by, My only collected friends were the beautiful and peaceful plants, trees and nature's other miracles around me...I was so eager to enjoy every seconds of every season and every day...I also made friendship with all the people who lived around my home...never played with any kids of my own age...just loved to talk to elder people about anything ...I have hided all my painful instants from my loved one's.. thought that it may upset them. My only hope, faith and my most trusted friend was my God, whom I believed more than anything, only with whom I shared my problems and joy, And He was always there for me...and that I can't forget...

     Things started to change after some years..., my little world became bigger than I could ever imagine... full of strange, selfish and hard hearted people. I started to adjust with them, just because I had to survive...each day living around them was like experiencing most painful days of my life.
     And one day I started to feel my change...finally I became one among them, who successfully survived among them. I was not happy to accept this change of mine. But that change helped me to stand erect and speak out in my later years.

   There were many times in these years where I lost my hope and faith completely...But my Lord took care of me...He directed me in His path...even with my strange decisions that I took by believing my intuition was the decision that He took for me...At first people around me blamed me for taking such risky decisions..but sooner they were happy about it..because that was the best things happen to me.

   Then, for some years my journey was of little relief.. Life played many crazy game But God never left my side... I was not the calm girl of the older years that everyone understood, But I was someone who rules her life with her own intuition and was matured than any one of that age. But no one noticed that I was weak that time...I was losing my inner self and thats the reason my behavior changed drastically.

     After few years, I took may decisions one contrary to another. each time i took entirely different decisions...finally when I got what I wanted and when God has given something that I asked Him....I changed my decision to its contrary... but my intentions were good on that. God still helped me to be the best in what I chose... He raised me up to the mountains, He was so generous to me...

But after some years, there was time to make a clever move in my life... my decisions planted successfully but my mind said to me its wrong and I dropped it again..After that, for a long time there was no peace for me... Only falling hope was there...The worst part of my life was that. That was not a shorter struggle period, its span was too long,I saw nothing but sadness in my face...never been truly happy.... more than any other thing what hurt me most was that My God didn't answered me and my prayers...That made me heart broken....I even thought several time to end it all...But I still believe that He is the only one who loves me more than anyone...And He will never leave me....never... He knows me more than anyone...and whatever he does for me is the Best thing that can happen to me...And the tears that I cried will bloom one day, as happiness of my Garden of Life.

"I Love You God, For All That You Have Done For Me...

I Will Not Stop Believing In You Till The Last Breath Of My Life...

Sorry, That I Felt Hopeless sometime, Even when I Knew You Were By My Side...

Please Forgive Me For All My Sins, I Know You Only You Can Do That...

I Had Your Blessings With Me , And I Blamed You For Tings I Lost...

My Struggles,Pain,Glory And Happiness, all were Your Blessings..I Knew It Now

You Took My Tests, You Made Me Strong, You Gave Me Honor...

You Raised Me Up , And When I fallen, I Lost Faith In You...Sorry...

I Believe That Even After Everything You Still Loves Me...

Thank You, Father..."